Alright just got back from my second interview. It went alright. I thought I had it with a totally kick ass in depth monologue, super serious, and everything. I could feel the emotions swelling up at the right moments, I could feel my face getting hot, and tears about to stream through. But then he stopped me! In the middle of my monologue when I was about to peak, he raises his hand and says “I’m gonna stop you right there, I know you worked really hard on this, but …” and then he went on to say that he felt I needed more training. He asked me if I’ve ever studied method acting or when was the last time I had a class and how long were they. And as I answered each question respectively: never, a few months ago I took improv, and they were about a few months long; I realized that he was right. It’s true, I’ve never taken any method acting, it was always acting for the camera, commercial, improv. And I dunno why I never really considered it, but I guess now is a good time as any. He told me acting is like psychotherapy where I have to dig deep into my own experiences and kind of be able to transform those emotions with that specific experience into a button where I can push at any time, on cue, in front of the camera, every time. It makes sense. I had an acting teacher that told me I had the talent, I just didn’t know how to control it. To act for TV, movies, for directors and producers, I have to give it consistently and professionally.
I really only have myself to blame for this. I curse myself for not taking acting seriously for years and now expecting to get a theatrical agent within a month of being here. Silly silly rabbit, silly silly Thi. He even asked me if I was serious about this. Do I not resonate seriousness about this?? Of course I’m serious! I guess it shows that I haven’t performed in awhile (the last time I really truly acted was a year ago). Blegh. He did give me a list (a long ass list) of acting studios to train. I’ve already picked out a cheap and good one, so hopefully the next time I audition, my “fat” won’t be showing. I’m out of practice, I’m out of shape, and it shows!!
I asked him, “What do you want?” And he says, “Meryl Streep.” I laughed. That’s Meryl Streep! No one can touch her, let alone be her. I don’t want to be Meryl Streep. I want to be Thi Nguyen. But I get what he’s saying. I like how he’s pushing me and he wants me for commercials so that’s ok. If I can book a commercial, that can pay for classes. I already enrolled in groundlings and that was pretty expensive, and now I have to enrolled in a dramatic acting class, so money’s a bit tight. But I guess when it comes to my dream, I have no qualms about throwing down. Gotta show I’m serious about this right? Wish me luck. I really need it. And maybe a hug too.