He Wants Meryl Streep

Alright just got back from my second interview.  It went alright.  I thought I had it with a totally kick ass in depth monologue, super serious, and everything.  I could feel the emotions swelling up at the right moments, I could feel my face getting hot, and tears about to stream through.  But then he stopped me!  In the middle of my monologue when I was about to peak, he raises his hand and says “I’m gonna stop you right there, I know you worked really hard on this, but …” and then he went on to say that he felt I needed more training.  :/  He asked me if I’ve ever studied method acting or when was the last time I had a class and how long were they.  And as I answered each question respectively: never, a few months ago I took improv, and they were about a few months long; I realized that he was right.  It’s true, I’ve never taken any method acting, it was always acting for the camera, commercial, improv.  And I dunno why I never really considered it, but I guess now is a good time as any.  He told me acting is like psychotherapy where I have to dig deep into my own experiences and kind of be able to transform those emotions with that specific experience into a button where I can push at any time, on cue, in front of the camera, every time.  It makes sense.  I had an acting teacher that told me I had the talent, I just didn’t know how to control it.  To act for TV, movies, for directors and producers, I have to give it consistently and professionally.

I really only have myself to blame for this.  I curse myself for not taking acting seriously for years and now expecting to get a theatrical agent within a month of being here.  Silly silly rabbit, silly silly Thi.  He even asked me if I was serious about this.   Do I not resonate seriousness about this??  Of course I’m serious! I guess it shows that I haven’t performed in awhile (the last time I really truly acted was a year ago).  Blegh.  He did give me a list (a long ass list) of acting studios to train.  I’ve already picked out a cheap and good one, so hopefully the next time I audition, my “fat” won’t be showing.  I’m out of practice, I’m out of shape, and it shows!!

I asked him, “What do you want?”  And he says, “Meryl Streep.”  I laughed.  That’s Meryl Streep!  No one can touch her, let alone be her.  I don’t want to be Meryl Streep.  I want to be Thi Nguyen.  But I get what he’s saying.  I like how he’s pushing me and he wants me for commercials so that’s ok.  If I can book a commercial, that can pay for classes.  I already enrolled in groundlings and that was pretty expensive, and now I have to enrolled in a dramatic acting class, so money’s a bit tight.  But I guess when it comes to my dream, I have no qualms about throwing down.  Gotta show I’m serious about this right?  Wish me luck.  I really need it.  And maybe a hug too.


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