Yay! More progress! I’m super excited.  So I just came back from an interview with an agency and I have to say I liked the feeling I got from them.  The guy running the show was so open to me.  He completely welcomed the things I had to show and made time to see my YouTube video! He said he liked how I don’t mind getting embarrassed and my creativeness.  When I gave him my monologue, he gave me really good tips and another chance to really show what I’ve got.  I completely welcome criticism and second chances! And I have to admit, he was 100% right.  The monologue I gave didn’t showcase a range.  It was just one note: excitement.  And he said that it’s fine for commercials and print, for nickelodeon and Disney, but if I want to be represented theatrically, I have to dig deep.  I have to find the perfect monologue.  A monologue that has bumps and turns, a journey, a range.  The one I gave was this:

Ok here goes, I’m gonna be on a Broadway show!! It’s a musical called abracadabra.  This man, Mr. Beckman, he’s a producer, came into our dance class this afternoon and picked out 3 girls.  We have to be at the Hudson theatre on Monday morning by 10 o’clock to audition for the dance director.  But on my way out, he took me aside and said the job was as good as mine.  I have to call him tomorrow.  I may even have to go into town to talk to him about it.  They start rehearsing a week from Monday, then it goes to Philadelphia, Wilmington, Washington, and then it goes to New York the second week of December.  There’s nine big musical numbers and there’s going to be a big tank on stage that you can see through.  And the big final has the entire cast all under water.  Can you believe it?? I’m gonna be on a Broadway show!!

So, this monologue is from Neil Simon’s Brighton Beach Memoir.  The character is a 16-year-old girl named Nora.  I’ve always done this monologue because, well I look like a teenager.  I have a very commercial smile, and I feel that I can definitely pull this off, which I have.  I’ve gotten compliments on this monologue, but never a critique.  And now that I’ve gotten one finally, I’m grateful for it.  I can improve and find a monologue that not only challenges me to push my craft but to make me look/become versatile.  This monologue is like playing a song with two fingers instead of 10.  I need to find a 10-finger monologue!  The guy here told me he’d be down to represent me for commercials, but he’s willing to give me another chance to show him depth so he could possibly represent me theatrically.  And that’s what I like.  He believes in me!  That’s why I’m getting a second chance.  That’s why I’m SUPERPUMPED!!! After the whole interview, I got some movies and books so I can find the perfect monologue.  If you’re reading this, please help me.  I welcome any suggestions.



Ok, so I’ve been here for a month.  What have I been up to? A lot actually! I’m kinda proud of myself for getting shit done! I’ve been submitting my stuff to agencies around town and I have a few leads.  However, one agency approached me via la casting.  Suspicious isn’t it?

Why would an agency approach me? I’m a nobody.  LA is full of actors looking for representation and agencies should be bombarded with headshots and resume everyday.  Yet, these people came to me first, saw my picture on la casting, and emailed me.  What agency is this?  Michael Zanuck agency (mza).  I had doubts and a bad gut feeling and low and behold dun dun dun … they’re a SCAM.  I googled them, asked around, and apparently Michael Zanuck used to be part of another agency that scammed hella people and got CLOSED down.  They were Zanuck Passon Pace talent agency, and basically made people redo their headshots with their photographers and made them pose in “character shots” i.e. doctor, fireman, policeman, village people, etc.  That’s why this sucker is trying to make it on his own and find other suckers to follow him.  Too bad his reputation is all over the internet.  Although to be fair, I heard he is legit now and some people have had success with him.  But for me, too little too late. Finding the right agent means a lot to me, and I don’t want to be fooled.  I don’t want to be taken advantage of, and I hear that there are a lot of scammers in la.  I want to find an agent that I can trust, that really believes in me, and will work hard for me.  To get to superstardom, I can’t do it alone.

Aside from that, I auditioned to be placed in classes for Groundlings.  It’s an improv school and theatre where many successful people have come out from, like Will Ferrell, Kristen Wiig, Lisa Kudrow, etc.  I like what they have to teach and I’m excited to register for classes next month.  The audition was a group audition, basically to see if we could act or not.  I think the people in my audition group were really great and I think we all passed.  It was fun, the teacher really got us riled up with big emotions, and everyone really let it out.  It was liberating.  I didn’t know I could do it, but when everyone’s doing it, it was super easy! The teacher really stretched out our emotions, telling us to act really really sad, to really really happy, to arrogance and anger, everything.  The thing with me is that I always try to be subtle, to be neutral, to not cause drama and to not be emotional.  I guess from my background, I find that being emotional is a sign of weakness.  yes, I’ve learned that this thinking would hold me back as an actor, and so that’s why I like groundlings so much.  They want us to act in BIG emotions.  To NOT be neutral. Doing so, truly brought me to that emotion.  And this all came from an hour-long audition.  Imagine what I can learn from a 3-hour class!  The only problem I hear is that it will be hard to register for classes, because they will get full within a minute.  It’s like college all over again! Fun! Hahaha, wish me luck in getting a class.

Ok, I think that’s about it.  Foreseeable goals are to do well in my interviews with agents and to register for classes ASAP.  Other than that, I just have to be PROACTIVE with my career.  I’ve been talking to a lot of people that want to be actors and they tell me that they’ve been here for two years already and still don’t have an agent.  Why is that?  If this is really what you want, why aren’t you actively working on it?  What are you currently doing that is pushing your career forward (even if it’s just a little bit)?  I firmly believe that I have to constantly be working on something/anything that will help my career.  I really think that for me to be a superstar, I just have to be persistent and hardworking.  There’s no room to slack off.  I HAVE to work hard.  Even if I get one job, it’s not going to get easier.  I have to find another job, and another, and another.  There’s no expected promotion within a given amount of time, it’s just one job at a time.  And even if no one’s giving me a chance, no one is calling me, no one is giving me a job, I can always ALWAYS work on the craft.  I can always write my own shit and act it out.  I can do student films for free, I can tape myself doing monologues and critique myself.  I can study and watch inside the actor studio, watch films with really great performances from really great actors.  Acting isn’t a waiting game.  I’m not going to get discovered. I just have to be ready when someone gives me that big break.   It reminds me of a quote I heard from the dark knight (phenomenal movie btw, another goal is to be in a Christopher Nolan movie): “luck is when opportunity meets preparation”.  So let’s gooo!